The Last Chance Ranch by Wind Ruth & Samuel Barbara

Author:Wind, Ruth & Samuel, Barbara [Wind, Ruth]
Language: eng
Format: epub
Tags: FICTION / Romance / General, FICTION / Contemporary Women, FICTION / Romance / Contemporary
Published: 2011-09-20T00:00:00+00:00

Chapter Thirteen

Dear Antonio,

I’m aching for a normal life. Everyday life. People and ordinary arguments and dust on lamp shades. I’m aching to live in a place with curtains on the windows, and a place where you don’t have to hide everything that crosses your mind.

I don’t let myself think much beyond that, but it would be so great to have babies again one of these days. It’s really the one thing I wanted, even when I was a little girl—to grow up and have babies of my own. I like children a lot, little ones and big ones both, girls and boys. I liked being pregnant and my labor was easy, and it seemed the most natural thing in the world for me. Like when I was made, the angels looked in their little bag and said, “I think we’ll make this one a mother,” then gave me everything I’d need for it. Like my friend Iris, who is an artist. She sees color in a different way than the rest of us—each tiny hue and variation means something to her. Speaks to her. She takes those color voices and puts them on a canvas or a piece of paper, and makes everyone else hear the voices, too.

That’s how it is with me and mothering. I know, in my deepest heart, that was what I was supposed to do. And though I’m your mother, and I got to have some time with you, and there’s always going to be a special link between us, I haven’t really been able to be your mother all these years. I bet your voice is changing now—you’ll be more than half-grown by the time they let me out.

But maybe I’ll get to do a little more mothering with you, or maybe you’ll have my grandchildren and I can do it that way. Somehow, I have to believe that.

Love, Mom

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